Today is the 19th June 2009 . My last day being 18 years old . Honestly i feel like dying, so i could stop my age growth and be 18 forever, but apparently i can't, because in reality, it's considered a stupid act .

I thought i could spend this last day with some one special, you know, and count down to being 19 years old . But then again, career is more important . I know .

Whatever, being unable to celebrate my birthday because of some religious belief is bad enough i thought, so things got worse . Maybe i shouldn't even be looking forward to birthdays anymore, as i always have been .

Maybe i'm childish in people's eyes, so be it .

He's right, when you realize your love life is hanging by thread, it's time for a promotion, then should you realize life don't go up always, there are, too, downs .

Fuck 19th birthday . I rather be alone .